Learning to Trust

      A broken heart that has been pried into by a million different keys that left the lock worn away and rusted; this is the kind of heart that is only mended by a God who is sovereign. He sees the depths of our hearts. He knows every corner, every crack in the walls, every door that has been opened and slammed shut after the dark tried to seal it up forever. We are left broken and desolate by those who we once trusted. The idols in our lives and the things we put our hope in that left us empty. Trust is a four letter word that seems so simple rolling off the tongue, and yet so complex and misunderstood when it applies to our individual lives. I have trusted, and I have let people in. And I have been left with a heart that was ravaged and torn one too many times to even begin to understand. Even still, every time I try and run from the one thing that has always been constant, Jesus Christ stands there before the cross, in all His glory, lifting my face towards the heaven, and whispers over me,"Peace, be still."
My hope has been in so many different things throughout my life; in people, in idols, in thoughts, in pleasures. But none can or ever will compare to the hope and peace I find in my beautiful Lord. Trust? One of the hardest things on this earth, for me. Trusting in Jesus Christ? It's what has saved my life, every day. I have learned that people will dissappoint, because we are human. I have learned that idols will fail us, because they will never be real. I have learned that pleasures of this world will leave us empty, because they are not eternal. Everything in this world is meaningless without hope in Christ. He is our strength, our peace, our perservance. He is our reason for running the race when we feel weak. As solomon repeats over and over again in Ecclesiastes, the desires of the flesh are meaningless unless they are rooted in Christ. "Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun."~Ecclesiastes 2:11. My prayer is and always will be that my desires are from God and God alone.
When I am brought to my knees, when the tears fall forth, and when the aches in my heart are too much to bear, I am always reminded that my hope and my trust is first and foremost in Him who will never leave nor forsake me. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."~Proverbs 3:5-6. So while trust may seem impossible to those who have been broken countless times; when we learn to trust in the Lord above all else, we learn to put our hope in the only One who deserves our trust. We allow him to mend our broken hearts, and to teach us to love again, more passionately and stronger than before. He has taught me to guard my heart, but to also never fear brokenness or the unknown. Because it is in those moments of brokenness that I have come closer to Him, and have been given the strength and the courage to rise above it all. Trust, dear ones. And fear not. Trust in Him, and know that He will guide you in all you do. Our hope is in you, Lord.